I can’t have a good sleep every night. I feel asleep about at 8 every evening and go to bed, but I wake up at 2 or 2:30 every night. I know that it is too early to go to bed at 8:00, but it is natural because I have to go to school early every morning. what the matter is that I’m tired very much every morning when I wake up though I have six hours for sleeping at least. The reason is not unclear. Perhaps stresses and strains keep me very tired.
To have a good rest for my own body and brain is very difficult for me. I realize that I always think about something meaningless which often gives me something painful and frightening. It has no meaning, I know, but I can’t stop it. I don’t know the way to think nothing.
Sometimes I want to go on a trip without anyone around Japan by car or train. On the trip, I perhaps remain seeing the sight on the window. What I see must be very beautiful and let me calm… Whenever I see mountains and rivers, bright fields and the sea which is too wide to recognize, I always have the feeling of nostalgia. It is not only to want to go back to my hometown, but also, to want to go back “Die Zeit davor, daß wir geboren waren(The time before our births)”. To go somewhere we don’t live is very attractive when we have trouble. But is it actually just an escape from reality?
If I can have a chance to go abroad again, I want to go to Germany and Norway. When I was in university, I learnt German there. To learn it brings me not only the knowledge about German grammar and words, but also more better understanding for English. Also dann kann ich noch jetzt ein bisschen Deutsch schreiben, hören und sprechen. Aber viele Wörter hatten schon von mir verlassen. Das ist mir sehr schade!
Before leaving the world, I want to visit Nordkapplatået in Norway. This is the most northern cape which people can visit in the Eurasian Continent. I hear that the view is too beautiful to express any words and pictures. I want to have a feeling of reality that I was born on the beautiful planet and it must be very fortunate.
…What do I write here today? It is meaningless at all… It is time that I must prepare to go to school.
Thank you for your visit here today.